COVID19 HEAD GAMES

Quarantine is a quiet pain.”


THE MIND GAME

This pandemic lockdown has created a country of not only structural chaos, but mental choas as well. You have even had a string of attempted and some actually followed through with suicides from this lockdown. And it’s not the lockdown that has them suicidal. It’s the loss of a comfortable surrounding that so many have become accustomed to living. Why, well because a once thriving business owner is now destitute. A lockdown has forced employees to lose their jobs and now have to make financial decisions without a consistent income. All this has led to a mental breakdown of our country. We have not seen despair like this since the Great Depression. But what is the country to do because so many will not have a job even when the system reopens.

RATIONAL DECISIONS DIMINISH

On any other normal day, your mind is free to think about your needs and wants. And this is because your life is so predicated on what you do for a living. So when that job loss happens everything seems to come at you at once. But it’s not coming at you at once. All you’re experiencing. Is your life on a daily which is under control when you have a job. But since you’re not working that consistent windfall is actually realized. You get a chance to see the totality of your life. And you become over-burdened like, “how do I dig myself out. Problem is, you may not buried. Your mind creates more than what you’re used to but its all the same as usual. Meaning paying $2000 a month in bills is not seen when you have a job. You just pay bills toward the end of the month. But when you lose a job you see the $2000.. And seeing those numbers creates a lack of confidence ultimately creating a breakdown mentally. Then you do end up burying yourself.

KEEPING BUSY

When all you think about is your current situation then you’re going to go into an even deeper depression. So for me I have continued lifting weights as well as getting back into running. This gives you a normal routine that takes you away from your struggle. And you will be able to pick yourself up quicker than most in your same position.


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WE ALL HAVE DEMONS: HOW OUR ENTIRE SOCIETY IS GOING THROUGH MENTAL STRESS

Man in Blue and Brown Plaid Dress Shirt Touching His Hair

“A planet of hurt.”


in a world of hurt

Studies have recently came out and found that people are far more depressed in today’s society than ever before. Now, a lot of signs have pointed to the consuming aspect of social media. The idea that no matter how well you’re doing, someone somewhere is doing better than you. And if you are constantly comparing yourself to people on social media, then yes, you will be mentally hurt. And that is why the state of our mental health has been in such a low place recently. But what is even more sinister is the idea that people have become to infatuated with making other people lose everything they have ever worked for because we are so unhappy. Whoever thought that we would be so unhappy that someone else getting ripped makes us feel good.

whose to really blame

If the state of our mental health is so low, then who should be held responsible? the answer to that question is us. We are to held liable for our own hurt not some internet portal. We shouldn’t see Instagram or Facebook taken away because content makes people unhappy. Because people always have a way of turning it off. There are close to 1 billion people on Facebook, but 7 billion people in the world. That means you are on it because of choice. We seem to look for places to get us angry when it really is as easy as unfollow. The things that makes us unhappy we can detach quicker than we know. Reality is, we are addicted ti the anger. It almost gives us a sense of belonging in a world where no one sees us.

nothing new but the weather

A lot of our issues we have always had as a society, it’s just that we have not never had an outlet like today to express ourselves. So now we just pour all of our emotions out for the world to see and hear. And what it has done was expose what was already there, yet not everyone could see. And that is that we have, a serious metal health problem in our world. Now, like I said before, we have to fix our own problems, but it’s hard to fix the problem if people won’t even admit they have a problem to start.


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MIND IS MINE: WHY ONLY CERTAIN PEOPLE SHOULD OCCUPY YOUR HEAD SPACE

Man in Blue and Brown Plaid Dress Shirt Touching His Hair

“Protect it to the fullest.”


cerebral protection

Are you one of these people who let others opinions seep into your brain? The world has a lot of ideas as to how you should live your life. And the only person that has to live that life is you. Only thing about that is, we are creatures who seek attention from the outside world. No one wants to live their life alone, so your have to be willing to fit into a group in order to coexist. Only problem is that group might have a way they want you to present yourself. If it does not align with the group, then the group politics dictate that you need to be on the outside of the group.

keeping it simple

Ask yourself a few questions regarding the people who come into your mental space, or better yet, your physical space. Why are they allowed access into your arena that is your mind?  How close are these people to you in life? And that is why it becomes so hard for you to get rid of these people. They are right next to you everyday and have been your entire life or at least most of it. So, how I operate is to keep things simple. Look at your life and pick out the things that are the most important to you first. Then scale back from there the things most important in life in general, not just what you think. Because everything we think is important is not always important.

accept me or reject me

You have to learn to be hard, but also righteous in how you carry yourself. Meaning if you want people in your head space that are going to provide the mental nutrients you need to succeed, it means being a dictator with regards to who enters your space. It takes time and normally for people it can take them their whole lives to get to this point. But once you do, it will make your existence easier.


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HATING MY LIKENESS: HOW TO COPE WITH NOT LOVING YOURSELF

Close-Up Photo of Woman With Black and Purple Eye Shadow

“Self hate is real.”


i am hurting

You ever look in the mirror and the reflection is what you can’t stand to see. But it is the human that is staring back at you that hurts to see. You are struggling to cope with your existence that is you on the planet. And how do you fix not liking yourself and wanting to be something else? You are smart, attractive, successful, but something is missing. Can it potentially be love? Well, some people have love for others and the utmost compassion, but they are hurting. What is the underlying problem that is wrong with you? I not only have I been there, but I still struggle in my mind being this person some times where I wish I didn’t turn on the lights in the bathroom.

mental madness

Let me give you an insight into my mental craziness. I was born in the year 1987 and coming up on 32 years of age. And my mind has been this weird field of up and down chaos. I have spent so much of my life depressed and shying from people. It was due to being poor and physically not feeling like I measured up to standards. Here I am 32 years of age trying to reclaim a life I never lived. Growing up in a household with my sisters and mother, not having a man to build your identity, the flower blooms in certain ways. For me it meant not shedding a tear for everything and trying to find my way in a world where no one fully understands you because there is a gender gap in the house. So you question yourself: mentally, socially, sexually, and physically. Luckily for me, I know why I hated what I looked at. Some people will never make it to that point.

reinvention

Here is the great part about living in New York City. I can recreate myself at any point in time. That really aids in you trying to break out of the funk that you are in. Now, that doesn’t mean everyone in New York is happy. What it means is for someone like me, I can continue to move forward because everyday I walk outside I am dealing with multitudes of people who know nothing about me. I can always focus on me and what I need to do in life.


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HURT AND PAIN: WHEN GOING THROUGH DEPRESSION

Red Amazon Danbo on Brown Wooden Surface

“It never last long.”


sunken place

Sometimes I find myself in place mentally that is hard to escape. And that place is know as depression. In my life, I have learned to cope with the feeling of depression, but for some reason it never goes away. I manage it better now, but it was much worse in the past. Where does it come from? How does one become depressed? And I don’t know, nor can I tell you how it came about. But I will say, that I am one of millions of Americans that battle with this issue. Luckily for me, I have a coping mechanism that aid me in getting over feeling down.

is it born or brought on

People say you can become depressed in life, but are there traits that you have that you are born with in life. Things that make you who you are, that never leave. Are we predisposed to being depressed? There are a lot of people who believe this to be true. Now me on the other hand, there are things in your family, but for me it was more so quality of life. I was depressed from childhood all the way through my 20’s. I am 31 years old and just now able to begin to have the happiness I wanted early on. And that is what depression does, it alters your entire existence and you have delayed progress.

running from the problem

Where is the problem you’re going through stemming from? many of us have unresolved issues in our lives that we never worked out. My issue was identity because a lack of male in my life, self-conscious about appearance, and growing up poor.How do you begin to work your problems? Sure there is ways to go about it by seeking medical treatment. But at times, you have to move past the treatment and be able to ask yourself questions when not able to seek treatment. So know why you have the issue, and that could potentially make treatment easier.


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HEALTH IS WEALTH: TWO MONTHS FOR HEALTH

Honeycrisp Health Illustration

“Healthy and winning.”


feeling internal goodness

For the next two months will be a new topic that I will be covering for the year 2019. And the next topic that will be covered is the role that health plays in our lives. And that health is both mental and physical health. We only have four more days until the month of March. Since the spring is here, the need to be in shape, and eat right, exercise for the summer is necessary. Yet we also need to make sure that we keep our lives together with regards to how we think in society. With so many people upset in our country, mental health being on the up and up is important as well. So for the next two months enjoy all that I will be bringing to you from March through April.


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SMILING OUTSIDE, FROWNING OUTSIDE: HOW WE TRICK SOCIETY MENTALLY TO THICK WE’RE HAPPY

drink, girl, glass

“How we hide our pain in plain sight.”


WHY WE HURT

People have all sorts of reasons why they smile every single day. There are the obvious people who do so because they are truly happy, then there are the other group. This other group are the ones who don’t want you to know what really goes on behind closed doors. They smile and grin, but little do you know, they are torn on the inside. So how do we know who these people are; we don’t know them. We usually don’t know them until they say something or tragically, until something bad happens.

BAD BEHAVIOR

Hurting on the inside, they might resort to engaging in bad activities to take their minds off of the hurt. You might see them as fun loving and outgoing, but little do you know, they are the an emotional wreck. Or not even just the parties, what about the drugs they use. When looking at the way Marijuana is seen as this recreational drug, it becomes so much easier to disappear in this drug than any other time before. That doesn’t mean all people who smoke Marijuana are depressed, but that it can serve as an easy escape without outside social ridicule.

COMING TO TERMS

Reaching out and seeking help is so hard for so many people. But in order to be able to reach out for help, you first need to be able to admit that you have a problem. Too often people try to ignore the issues, but they want help. Only problem is that you can’t run from yourself. You can try to run from everything else in life but self. For me, reaching out for help didn’t aid in my mental coping. I turned to writing and it has become my strength ever since.


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