COVID19 HEAD GAMES

Quarantine is a quiet pain.”


THE MIND GAME

This pandemic lockdown has created a country of not only structural chaos, but mental choas as well. You have even had a string of attempted and some actually followed through with suicides from this lockdown. And it’s not the lockdown that has them suicidal. It’s the loss of a comfortable surrounding that so many have become accustomed to living. Why, well because a once thriving business owner is now destitute. A lockdown has forced employees to lose their jobs and now have to make financial decisions without a consistent income. All this has led to a mental breakdown of our country. We have not seen despair like this since the Great Depression. But what is the country to do because so many will not have a job even when the system reopens.

RATIONAL DECISIONS DIMINISH

On any other normal day, your mind is free to think about your needs and wants. And this is because your life is so predicated on what you do for a living. So when that job loss happens everything seems to come at you at once. But it’s not coming at you at once. All you’re experiencing. Is your life on a daily which is under control when you have a job. But since you’re not working that consistent windfall is actually realized. You get a chance to see the totality of your life. And you become over-burdened like, “how do I dig myself out. Problem is, you may not buried. Your mind creates more than what you’re used to but its all the same as usual. Meaning paying $2000 a month in bills is not seen when you have a job. You just pay bills toward the end of the month. But when you lose a job you see the $2000.. And seeing those numbers creates a lack of confidence ultimately creating a breakdown mentally. Then you do end up burying yourself.

KEEPING BUSY

When all you think about is your current situation then you’re going to go into an even deeper depression. So for me I have continued lifting weights as well as getting back into running. This gives you a normal routine that takes you away from your struggle. And you will be able to pick yourself up quicker than most in your same position.


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WE ARE ALL SICK: HOW AMERICAN SOCIETY TODAY NEEDS THERAPY

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“Needing help, but can’t get it.”


a nation of problems

In a country where everyone’s lives are on social media, what do you do when it starts to effect the way we live our lives. Because being inundated with constant media cannot be good for a person’s well-being. And one of the reasons is because we are constantly comparing our lives with the lives of someone we don’t know. Simply because they posted a photo of something on their personal web page or profile. Now note I said posted something. Because we like to think that someone else’s life is better, but the reality is, it may not even be their life. And this is what America has come to as a nation. Our mental state is being effected simply because a few organizations were created. Because think about it, prior to 2006, where could you really go to post your life and talk to the masses?

cheer up someone is worse

I hate the fact that I may have to look at someone who is in a worse position to feel better about the fact that I am going through something. My mind is riddled, so I have to look at the homeless guy sleeping in the train station and say to myself that could be me. Imagine that, sleeping in the subway and a pained mind. That would easily turn into something much worse. But as crazy as that my sound, some people have to find that solace in their lives by looking at those who are more ravished.

who is at fault

We have cultivated a society which worships ourselves. So the reality behind how to fix this problem comes from within. But that would means it’s an unfixable problem because no one wants to say they are contributing to any major problem. So what happens is that the problem persists until there is nothing left to do. But by that time we will have already gone off the deep end. Or, if not the deep, we continue the madness in another form, and further go into a life of metal illness.


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WE ALL HAVE DEMONS: HOW OUR ENTIRE SOCIETY IS GOING THROUGH MENTAL STRESS

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“A planet of hurt.”


in a world of hurt

Studies have recently came out and found that people are far more depressed in today’s society than ever before. Now, a lot of signs have pointed to the consuming aspect of social media. The idea that no matter how well you’re doing, someone somewhere is doing better than you. And if you are constantly comparing yourself to people on social media, then yes, you will be mentally hurt. And that is why the state of our mental health has been in such a low place recently. But what is even more sinister is the idea that people have become to infatuated with making other people lose everything they have ever worked for because we are so unhappy. Whoever thought that we would be so unhappy that someone else getting ripped makes us feel good.

whose to really blame

If the state of our mental health is so low, then who should be held responsible? the answer to that question is us. We are to held liable for our own hurt not some internet portal. We shouldn’t see Instagram or Facebook taken away because content makes people unhappy. Because people always have a way of turning it off. There are close to 1 billion people on Facebook, but 7 billion people in the world. That means you are on it because of choice. We seem to look for places to get us angry when it really is as easy as unfollow. The things that makes us unhappy we can detach quicker than we know. Reality is, we are addicted ti the anger. It almost gives us a sense of belonging in a world where no one sees us.

nothing new but the weather

A lot of our issues we have always had as a society, it’s just that we have not never had an outlet like today to express ourselves. So now we just pour all of our emotions out for the world to see and hear. And what it has done was expose what was already there, yet not everyone could see. And that is that we have, a serious metal health problem in our world. Now, like I said before, we have to fix our own problems, but it’s hard to fix the problem if people won’t even admit they have a problem to start.


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SOCIAL SANITY: HOW SOCIAL MEDIA IS EFFECTING OUR MENTAL HEALTH

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“Too much time is not good.”


constant content

I wake up in the morning and check my Instagram first thing before turning on the television. The problem with that, is that people should get up and move around a little bit. If we are glued to our social media that early in the morning, it can have an impact on how we think. And in return can lead to some serious psychological problems. This is when you realize that social media can lead to mental health issues that stats have already concluded. But this is a medium that is here to stay and not going anywhere anytime soon. Not only is it not going away, but it will most likely grow to scale to be even bigger. Which means there will be even more problems in the world leading to an entire generation with mental illnesses.

whe were better when we didn’t know

There was a time when people didn’t know about the lifestyles of others. We got up, went to our jobs and came home to our families. You suspected people lived a certain way, but that was it. Now that there is a medium for people to post their lives, it is not only for public viewing. You also get a chance to see where you stand relative to someone else’s life. And no matter what you have someone somewhere has more. This has brought about a nation of depression and conspiracies. And yet, it is so easy to just unfollow, which is to a great extent why it’s so easy to not blame in a way social media. When I say blame, I am not saying them, I am saying a direct effect from the usage. We just were better off at times when we didn’t know, nor could we figure out.

why we tune in

Remember people, social media is all around us, but we have the option to tune out. We don’t have to follow things that make us uncomfortable. We do so because in today’s society we are addicted to the rage. We need something to be angry about and you can always depend on a story on the internet getting you revved-up. We nee something that will give us am escape away from our lives by looking at others lives with reverence. Sad part is that most people lives are fine, but when we compare we lose the satisfaction of how far we have come.


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GET YOURSELF CHECKED: WHY MEDICAL HELP IS NEEDED

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“Book an appointment.”


get in the office

How often do you go in for a doctor’s visit? I can tell you from me personally, I routinely go in to get myself checked. But, as for mental health, I have not been in a doctor’s office in quite some time. I just don’t feel the need to enter the mental health office because I have discomfort and I also figured out a way to cope. As for physical health, there is no way to not visit the office and feel like everything is just going to be fine. You have to go into the office and make sure things are right even if you feel great. I received my health insurance for the first time in years, and so far went about four times last year.So my question to you, how often do you checkup on your health?

the mental

For some reason we seem to not think about mental as we talk about health. But the mental aspect of health is directly connected to the physical. Since our brain is the central nervous system of our bodies, the thoughts that go through our minds is very crucial to our survival. Yet you would be surprised how much people would just flat out dismiss the idea that there is something mentally wrong with them. No one wants someone picking away at their brain, but we could all use some form of help at some period in our lives. Because this health should come before physical.

routine visits

How often do you go to the doctor’s office? Twice a year or once a month? Ok, maybe once a month is a little much. But you have to pick a time to go that works for you. Go in and get yourself a visit to make sure everything is up to par. And most don’t want to visit a doctor because we are afraid they might find something we don’t want to know about. But what is minor that we are afraid of turns into something major. You have to get out of that fear of being scared. Yes, we all will die some day, and that fear is constant. No one wants to go too soon, but never linger on Earth. So it’s that back and forth and fear that keeps us from going. But please people, get yourself checked.


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HATING MY LIKENESS: HOW TO COPE WITH NOT LOVING YOURSELF

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“Self hate is real.”


i am hurting

You ever look in the mirror and the reflection is what you can’t stand to see. But it is the human that is staring back at you that hurts to see. You are struggling to cope with your existence that is you on the planet. And how do you fix not liking yourself and wanting to be something else? You are smart, attractive, successful, but something is missing. Can it potentially be love? Well, some people have love for others and the utmost compassion, but they are hurting. What is the underlying problem that is wrong with you? I not only have I been there, but I still struggle in my mind being this person some times where I wish I didn’t turn on the lights in the bathroom.

mental madness

Let me give you an insight into my mental craziness. I was born in the year 1987 and coming up on 32 years of age. And my mind has been this weird field of up and down chaos. I have spent so much of my life depressed and shying from people. It was due to being poor and physically not feeling like I measured up to standards. Here I am 32 years of age trying to reclaim a life I never lived. Growing up in a household with my sisters and mother, not having a man to build your identity, the flower blooms in certain ways. For me it meant not shedding a tear for everything and trying to find my way in a world where no one fully understands you because there is a gender gap in the house. So you question yourself: mentally, socially, sexually, and physically. Luckily for me, I know why I hated what I looked at. Some people will never make it to that point.

reinvention

Here is the great part about living in New York City. I can recreate myself at any point in time. That really aids in you trying to break out of the funk that you are in. Now, that doesn’t mean everyone in New York is happy. What it means is for someone like me, I can continue to move forward because everyday I walk outside I am dealing with multitudes of people who know nothing about me. I can always focus on me and what I need to do in life.


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MY MIND PLAYING TRICKS: THINKING YOU ARE NOT AS GOOD AS YOU ARE

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“Mind F**K.”


why i hurt

I come from work from my overnight shift and go to sleep because it is still in the early A.M. And when I wake up it is usually in the morning in as well. How do I get myself motivated when my mind is rattled about when and where to start my day. This is something that comes across my mind on a daily basis. You start to feel like your mind is trying to destroy you from progressing in life. And that is a tough thing because you need your mind to exist. And your mind will be the launching pad that will propel you into success. So when it goes so does the ability to succeed.

the mirror doesn’t lie, your mind does

You ever stand in front of the mirror and look at yourself with disdain? The look that you don’t like what you see and that you are never going to be better than where you are now. That feeling of image as you look in the mirror will eventually turn into your reality. And the mirror will give you a literal interpretation of what you think of yourself. Only the mirror is not a trick mirror. You will slowly turn into the person you thought you were prior to what you have become. Your own physical embodiment will shift and now you are that person you hate. Trust and believe I know what that feeling is about and have been in that place.

uncertainty and unknown

Walking into the land of who knows what is a scary place to be. Because now you are trying to maneuver in a place where you are foreign. You don’t speak the language of the land and any form of communication means nothing. And I walk through this land, not because of the city where I dwell, but life. And that is why I feel like the mind is playing tricks. What I wake up intending to do and what I actually do sometimes is different. It’s like I am in a fight with myself because I don’t ever think I look as good as I look. I don’t think I am as smart as I am. So there is this constant battle with self until I am successful at what I do in life.


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