SOCIALLY INCLINED WITH FEAR

Person Sitting on Couch

“I wish I could just do it.”


GOT IT BUT DON’T GOT IT

In my life as an adult I have always been known as the person who really didn’t have much to say. But I have always been full of ideas that I have been able to put into play. And what’s crazy is that the same energy that one needs for the success in life is the energy they get from the social part of life. Yet there is something about the execution that makes people freeze. And that has always been something that has me stuck. I can put things into play, but the social part of me is what gets stuck. Only the social part of me in order to build relationships that are intimate. When I want something bad enough I am able to get out of my way socially.

THE MIND IS WEIRD

It’s odd how the brain will make itself do one thing but is afraid to do something else. I look at life and think to myself how hard it is to make friends or date. Then I look at myself building a photography portfolio, writing screenplays, and writing my books. Then think it is actually harder to do that stuff. But in my mind the work is far easier than being social. I don’t know, it’s something about social that makes life harder. It can’t be rejection because career is more difficult. The only thing I can think of is the idea that I have been working since childhood. So it is not something I think about. You just have to approach the opposite of what you want the same as your social, or social like success.

WHICH IS WORSE

In your mind you try to think about what would be worse. Trying to make a success of yourself and be social, or someone not too social who is success. And there are people who fall under both equations. And those people are very lucky to be who they are because a lot of people wish they had both.


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Author: faheemjackson44

I am from Racine, Wisconsin where I was raised until I graduated high school back in the year 2006. That entire time growing up in my mother's house, I was a student athlete. My goal was to embark on a general business career or athletics. But injuries through sports stopped a sports path, so I decided upon business with a focus in marketing. While attending undergraduate school at University of Wisconsin-Parkside, I began to write screenplays in my senior year. At first it was for fun, but I quickly learned writing allow me to transfer negative energy into characters I created. This led to a decrease in depressing mood swings, which in turn boosted my quality of life. After undergraduate school in May of 2011, I move to New York City for graduate school. While pursuing my MBA, I continued to write screenplays, but always wanted to write novels as well. I finished graduate school back in the year 2014, but wrote screenplays until I began thinking of my first short film, first First Day Fears. While finishing my fifth feature length screenplay, I started to write my first novel this year. So far, I have finished my first short film and working on my next one (Freedomless Speech), and recently self published my first novel (The Boy Who Could Talk To God) and short stories book (Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Volume 1). My feature length screenplays have been put on temporary hold to finish my short films and books, but I am making good progress on my sixth feature length screenplay. With year 2017 ending, I am currently writing my novel Precinct 86 and Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Vol. 2. I have started teaching myself photography since 2018, along with my videography, podcast later on, and more research for my filmmaking.

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