“Fixing the mind starts with the history not the treatment.”
When I was a child growing up, I never thought of myself as mentally unstable. Yet when I became an adult, I attended therapy at one point and time. Now, that doesn’t mean I’m crazy, but that is the label associated with going to a therapist. And once I attended, I always thought that maybe something was stemming from childhood that brought me to this point. Because the point between my last year and half in undergraduate school and my last year of graduate school were depressing. The more I would think about how this was an issue the more I look into my own life’s past. What could have gotten me to the level of being depressed? Was there something in the moment? Or was there something there that may have been festering for a while? And eventually, I figured it out, and have been able to cope since then.
As for the rest of you, how do you fair as it pertains to your mental history? People have issues that have teetered on the brink of suicide, but have never been close. And you think to yourself, where did that come from? You might want to consider checking into your family history as well as observing your life up to this point. Throughout my life, I lived in constant fear, and writing is the first time in my life I have been confident about anything. So I found the catalyst for my mental issues. What is the catalyst for your mental issues? My mental extended to lacking confidence; an internal feeling that has taken years, and will take years to fully overcome. What are you lacking that has stopped you in your tracks? People say things like, “Just fix it.” If only life were that simplified, no one would have any problems. And as far as depression, it never goes away fully.
Once you are depressed, you usually live out your life that way. But it’s all about trying to manage it moving forward. Finding ways to cope with your mental instability. And like I said before, mine is to write. Conversations make the situation worse, which is why I stopped therapy. You on the other hand might think talking to someone is the best course of action. Now, you might ask, “Why writing?” Writing gives me the ability to be honest without filter. When you talk to another person, you’re not allowed to be human honest, but society honest. One is natural and indicative of us as people and the other is how we construct society to be. And the one I like is nature; the things you feel but can’t say in the public. That is why I write, it is one of the last vestiges of honesty that doesn’t get you in as much trouble as the verbal.
So in the end, I have shared with you my life mission from instability to stability. My mental health has transformed over the years, and I still have my moments. What are your moments? With everything we are blessed with with, we have something that is an imbalance to us. You can’t be 100% good at everything in life. You have an instability somewhere in your life. But finding a balance is what’s important. You should not try to find the perfect way to live, but more so the optimal way to live.
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