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“Why do good?”

born black

As a young Black male, I grew up in the Midwest. Watching a lot of things take place around me, there was something I saw that I rarely talked about until I became and adult. And that is that there is never a real due process for Black males. You are guilty no matter what and if you are innocent the court system got it wrong. And it makes you wonder, what the hell is the purpose of being good, if everyone still thinks you’re bad.  And there are so many places to start when I say still looked at as bad.

court systems

Guilty, “Good, the system did what it was supposed to do.” Innocent, “How the hell did the court get this one wrong.” And you think to yourself, what is driving the idea that it’s always a guilty. And with that, you almost think what’s the purpose of even going to a trial. You already know the outcome. I think that’s why O.J. Simpson’s case was so big at the time. It was because this Black man was found not guilty, even though inevitably people on both sides eventually would think of him as guilty. The country was split, so split, people went as far as not speaking to anyone who believed in the other side.


When it comes to dating, we are seen as these attractive men outside of Black women almost behind closed doors. But the moment it’s publicly outside of that, then things get a little uncomfortable. But in all, we still have this aspect of guilt that lingers over our heads. That look, the look that is given to you when someone feels you have committed a crime or done something else wrong. So you stand still, trying to piece together what is is that you have done, if anything.

real or fake

Is what I have been saying a reality, or just a stretch. The above feelings are sentiments that so many Black males feel. Now, do I feel this way on a daily basis no. I have never felt like a bad guy dating or in society. But I guess everyone’s reality is different than my own.

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Author: faheemjackson44

I am from Racine, Wisconsin where I was raised until I graduated high school back in the year 2006. That entire time growing up in my mother's house, I was a student athlete. My goal was to embark on a general business career or athletics. But injuries through sports stopped a sports path, so I decided upon business with a focus in marketing. While attending undergraduate school at University of Wisconsin-Parkside, I began to write screenplays in my senior year. At first it was for fun, but I quickly learned writing allow me to transfer negative energy into characters I created. This led to a decrease in depressing mood swings, which in turn boosted my quality of life. After undergraduate school in May of 2011, I move to New York City for graduate school. While pursuing my MBA, I continued to write screenplays, but always wanted to write novels as well. I finished graduate school back in the year 2014, but wrote screenplays until I began thinking of my first short film, first First Day Fears. While finishing my fifth feature length screenplay, I started to write my first novel this year. So far, I have finished my first short film and working on my next one (Freedomless Speech), and recently self published my first novel (The Boy Who Could Talk To God) and short stories book (Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Volume 1). My feature length screenplays have been put on temporary hold to finish my short films and books, but I am making good progress on my sixth feature length screenplay. With year 2017 ending, I am currently writing my novel Precinct 86 and Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Vol. 2. I have started teaching myself photography and will pursuing that by summer of 2018, along with my videography, podcast later on, and more research for my documentary.

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