FEAR NOT WHAT YOU CAN’T CONTROL: HOW TOO MUCH THOUGHT OF THE END DRIVES US CRAZY

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“The end is more near than the beginning.”


THE THOUGHT

When you are young, you don’t understand what death means. You’re just living your life and existing. But do you remember the first time you realized that you wouldn’t be on this Earth forever. It creeped you out when you first found out that there is an end to life. Now that you are an adult and are more in the know, it creeps you out even more. Then you get to someplace in your life where you comfortable. Usually that happens toward the end of life once you see so many people around you die off. Life becomes a lot more alone and not worth living.

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME

I had a great grandmother who passed away at almost 100 years old. Which is an amazing lifespan to exist on this planet. How one lives to be that age with so much around us is mind boggling. So many friends and family are hurt by the circumstance, but you start to think to yourself, when is the right time to die? Is it 50 years old, 70 years old, what about 100 years old? We are so hurt when someone who is an elder passes, but 100 years is a long time. Is it really a tragedy at that point, or do we rejoice? Because to me, that is a happy ending to life.

FAR TOO YOUNG

Age has a lot to do with being afraid to die. I am 30 years old, and in my life, I have heard of a few people in my age group die already. One guy in my twenties and another more recent, both natural causes. Isn’t that something scary, natural causes taking you away from Earth at the age of 30. And that’s when it dawns on people the real fear. People don’t fear the inevitable; we fear not being able to reach our full potential in life. Because just being afraid to die for the sake of dying will drive you crazy. Because it’s something that we all will do some day.

ACCEPTING THE END

Knowing you will pass, and that life will continue after you are gone is a bummer. And what’s more of a bummer, the majority of people on Earth are not public figures where at least names live on forever. A time will come where no one will care or even know you existed. And that’s just members of your family past a certain point. I guess that’s why I write so much. I will leave behind a base of knowledge. From me to the people of who I was, how I thought while I was here. So far at the age of 30, I have written a lot. Imagine if I live to be my great grandmother’s age.


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Author: faheemjackson44

I am from Racine, Wisconsin where I was raised until I graduated high school back in the year 2006. That entire time growing up in my mother's house, I was a student athlete. My goal was to embark on a general business career or athletics. But injuries through sports stopped a sports path, so I decided upon business with a focus in marketing. While attending undergraduate school at University of Wisconsin-Parkside, I began to write screenplays in my senior year. At first it was for fun, but I quickly learned writing allow me to transfer negative energy into characters I created. This led to a decrease in depressing mood swings, which in turn boosted my quality of life. After undergraduate school in May of 2011, I move to New York City for graduate school. While pursuing my MBA, I continued to write screenplays, but always wanted to write novels as well. I finished graduate school back in the year 2014, but wrote screenplays until I began thinking of my first short film, first First Day Fears. While finishing my fifth feature length screenplay, I started to write my first novel this year. So far, I have finished my first short film and working on my next one (Freedomless Speech), and recently self published my first novel (The Boy Who Could Talk To God) and short stories book (Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Volume 1). My feature length screenplays have been put on temporary hold to finish my short films and books, but I am making good progress on my sixth feature length screenplay. With year 2017 ending, I am currently writing my novel Precinct 86 and Faheem Jackson Short Story Collection Vol. 2. I have started teaching myself photography and will pursuing that by summer of 2018, along with my videography, podcast later on, and more research for my documentary.

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