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“It’s there since birth, but why?”


Humans are endowed since birth with a lot of emotions. Emotions that I can’t explain as to why we have them, but we do. And sorrow is one of those emotions that we have as people. Why were we given an emotion such as sorrow? How does this aid us in our existence on this planet. Because everything we are born with in our lives serve as some type of purpose for our survival in the beginning of time. So in having the emotion to feel sorrow, pain, hurt, and dejection; where did it come from in the beginning?

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As humans evolved into the beings that we are today, there are things that have aided in our further existence. As I said before in other post, there are families that will never be known because for whatever reason they fell off. Whether it was not having offspring, or taking part in some activity that ended their lives. But emotions gave us the ability to feel compassion, and animal, bigfoot, evolutionmainly for one another. Even though there was tribal fighting because as man ventured out we would eventually find our way back to other early humans. That’s when hostility arose, but once hostility died down some more, man would procreate even with those seen as different. Civilizations stronger arose, and the reason for further compassion became paramount.

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As time progress, we not only continue to have sorrows, but we have also used sorrow to take on other meanings. Sorrow also can mean happy just as much as it means to be hurt. We show sorrow when our kid takes their first steps, graduate from college, and get married. We have found ways to channel our hurt into happiness so that tears that form in the eyes come out of fulfillment. And we are becoming more of a global community with each passing year. Who knows, man might eventually become a one nation species. Not in 10 years or even 100 years, but who knows in 1,000 years.

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“Being able to shift your thoughts, will ultimately put you in a better place.”

You ever the hear phrase that your thoughts become your actions. That whatever you conjure up in your mind have a tendency to manifest itself in how you react in situations. So if you think that you are not going to succeed and you believe in that enough it will show itself in your work. And that is how powerful the mind can be. You can use it to benefit yourself in life or it can be your greatest enemy. And generally, the people who look down on themselves are those battling with depression and anxiety issues. From a person with experience dealing with depression in life, it’s a come and go illness.

Recently I checked the statistics, and from the information gathered by the Anxiety and Depression Association of America, anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness effecting Americans of roughly 20% of the American population. This same association gathered more evidence that also showed that the following also exist with people of mental illness which are various forms of depression:

  • Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), which is the excessive worrying of potential issues that could arise where the person could be at lose of health, money, work, or family. And at times the issues they are worried about happening, may never actually take place. Yet, the people worry none the less causing them to develop a mental illness.

  • Panic Disorder (PD), which are panic attacks that come form out of nowhere, where the person is constantly in fear of the attack happening again.

  • Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD), is an illness where the person has an intense fear of being judged especially when placed in social environments where they have to interact with people.

  • Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), effects people in a way where they people who are obsessive have these thoughts that cause anxiety and depression, and the compulsive aspect aids them in designing consistent behavior that relieves them of this anxiety.

  • Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), is a debilitating condition that arises from people who have bare witness to traumatic events such as terrorist attacks, serious accidents, or most notably, warfare.

Well, with these various mental illness that cause our emotions to become actions, what are ways to channel this depression. For me writing and putting my thoughts and feelings into the world is one way. Once you see how many other people deal with trauma, you’re able to cope knowing you aren’t alone. And that people are just as afraid to come out as you. But in writing, I also was able to channel my negative emotions into characters of stories for my screenplays and books. In channeling these anxieties into characters, in order for the character to get better, I have to make the script or book work by showing progress in the character. This inevitably made me a better problem solver of self.

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“The hurt and the pain, yet where is it coming from.”

Do you have mood swings that cause you to cry at times out of nowhere? You’ll be performing some task, or even casually walking up the street. I had one of those moments today while at work. And to keep people from asking what’s wrong, I turned my back to them. But now that my shift is over at work, I had forgetton about the instance until now. So what was it that made me go through this moment of emotional low? Is there some sort of imbalance in life? Or, is it a sign of something deeper? It can be uncomfortable to tear up out of nowhere. Because when someone asks what’s wrong, you can only say nothing. Making up a lie will only mean creating a new lie at every pass. So you have to ignore people until you get over this emotional low.

What’s even creepier at times is that you conjure up an image at times that never took place. And then you might cry just thinking about what if it were true. For example, you play out a scenario of yourself getting sick and breaking the news to your family. Then you cry just thinking about all the people that would get hurt by your sickness. What’s creepy is that you’re not sick. You just made it all up in your head for the sake of feeling hurt about something. Sounds like some sort of mentally ill sickness. And you would be right, but this is uncomfortable for so many to talk about because there is a psychological aspect to it. No one wants to think of themselves as crazy, but what could it be? Why would anyone want to cry for the sake of crying even when life is going well? I have a few suggestions as to why.

One of the reasons we lean on emotion is because we may lack emotions at times. This forcing yourself to be emotional even at irrational times makes us feel alive. I know I am not someone who shows a lot of emotion. So I’ll think of a strong memory, and from that comes tears. But it does not always have to be about feeling hurt. Some times you might find yourself crying about something good that is or going to happen. You get this weird euphoric feeling and then comes the tears. I have also had this before in my life as well. And all these different emotions like I said prior have some type of psychological implication connected to them.

In the end, emotions are real and they are what make us feel alive. No matter if the emotion is brought on by hurt or pain; or if you get the feeling to rejoice. And rejoice is interesting considering we always associate crying with feeling sad. But don’t be alarmed regarding your mental stability. Involuntary crying is more natural then you think. (PERSONAL WEBSITE) (FAN PAGE)   

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