LONESOME: YOU DON’T HAVE TO LIVE ALONE

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“You don’t have to live alone nor die alone.”

Have you ever felt alone in the world? Have you ever felt like you don’t a friend or even sometimes family you can depend on? Do you have to live like this? Will there ever come a time where you’ll be vindicated from such lonesomeness? Well, in my opinion you don’t have to be alone. You don’t have to feel shut out as if no one wants to be around you. Because trust and believe, there are people just like you who are just as shut out. There are plenty who have been in your position. Let’s discuss what all of this means.

I live in New York city; to be more specific the borough of Manhattan. This is a city of approximately 10 million inhabitants and nearly 70 million tourists in a year. Yet when you walk the streets, all you see are people walking alone. Now, don’t get me wrong, just because someone walks alone does not necessarily mean they are alone. What I’m saying is that you don’t see a lot of groups unless they are teens, tourists, and/or people on lunch break from work. But the city does have a lot of lonely people. What do I mean?

For example, the men and women who walk the streets talking to themselves. Now I myself do the same, but mainly it’s the brainstorming of ideas to write for my novel and screenplays. But you hear the people’s conversations and you can tell they don’t have anyone in their lives. What if they had someone in their lives to talk to; would they still be having lonely conversation? To be in a city of this size, it’s odd that you can live here and not have a single interaction with anyone. But if the human mind has nothing coming into it from another human being, we tend to have conversations with ourselves. What are ways we don’t have to feel alone?

We have family, but as time passes and people go off and start their own families, you see less of them. Even friends have their immediate work and family lives. So this requires you to throw yourself into the world. One of the things you can do is start to develop relationships with people you work with everyday. They have lives, but sometimes they want to get away. There is friendship here as well as neighbors. In your neighborhood, you start to develop conversations with people you see everyday. With the openness of the internet, you can take part in an open chat board or start your own blog. You bounce ideas off of one another; you’re not making contact, but you have someone to connect with.

Then again, there are the people who are homeless. These are the people who sleep in the street every night. I see this group of people as well in New York City. This is the main group who you see talking to themselves. It’s truly because they have no one to talk to at all. A harsh reality that no one wants to experience: being homeless and no one in your life. Then there are the people who have a home, have a job, but no friends nor family. They don’t have anyone, and most likely never will. Luckily for me I have family back home in the Midwest. I could either call or go back home to live. Even with that, they sill have full-time employment. Meaning you have to find something that will engage you in life.

And that’s the key, staying engaged. Just because you have people in your life (family and friends) don’t mean they have time for you. It’s a reality; I myself have gone a full month without calling my siblings. Then I go, wow, it’s been a month, let me call or send a text. It’s because I’m trying to engage myself in this ever changing world we reside within. So my mind is constantly moving, yet keeping them in my thoughts. But I still know they are one call away, a parent is one call away. Some people don’t have that call, but hopefully they’ll find a way to that call. Whether it comes in the form of a friend or intimate relationship.

FAMILY TIES: WHY WE’VE GONE IN SEPERATE DIRECTIONS

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“Why have people become so distant?”

You ever see those 1950’s images of the family sitting around the table having a Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner? Everyone is smiling from ear to ear. People pass food and/or gifts as they indulge in giving and food. Well, note I said the 1950’s because those days are so far behind us. Well why, why have families become so distant over the recent years for the holidays? There are a few factors: work related, family issues, and distant living.

First you ask yourselves, what is this thing with work related? Well work has gotten in the way over the years. Living in society is so expensive that it requires people to now work during the holidays. Everything used to be closed for Thanksgiving and Christmas, now businesses are open. People need the money, so they are opting out of visiting family. You now have to make so many decisions in life, the family or the rent. Catching up on old times or utilities. You have to make some tough choices in this world so not visiting family is something they have to understand.

But it’s not always about the job. What about the families that just flat out don’t speak to each other? This is a reality as well in our world today. When we’re young we are close to family, but as you get older you take on different views and ways of life. These ways can sometimes conflict with family causing people to not see each other. Another reason can be that the backbone of the family dies. This person was someone that was able to bring everyone together. But since they have passed away everyone go their separate directions.

Then again, it’s not all about fighting and work. Some people live far away from family. If you live in Los Angeles and family is in San Diego, great. But if family live in Miami and you’re in Los Angeles, well I’ll send you a postcard. Besides the sheer distance, the cost can run pretty high when trying to travel long distances. We go months, some people years without seeing immediate family. It’s nothing personal, but we just live way too far away.

See in the end, there are a lot of reasons why people no longer spend time with family. Some people are loners others would rather just relax. Whatever the case families aren’t like they used to be. A lot of it has to do with relationships as well. When you get married and have children, you see less of family. They split time with their spouses family, but also at home as well. However you view why families have parted always reach out because you never know when you’ll see them again.

RESTLESS NIGHTS (SHORT STORY)

As I lie here, staring at the ceiling, I wonder when is my baby coming home. He left a few days ago and I already miss him as if he has been gone for years. Will he ever return, and if he does will I recognize him. Should I move or wait around until he comes back into my life. Some of you might be wondering, who am I referring to. Well, my one and only, my true love, without him I am not whole. You might think to yourself, how did he leave, and why did he leave. It started when I made him breakfast a few days ago. I have to admit, it wasn’t the most filling meal one would hope for, but I tried my best.

I gave it my all, but to him, he couldn’t see that; he couldn’t see how much I worked to satisfy him. How could he not appreciate the distance I went to, to please him? And it doesn’t stop at breakfast, what about how clean I keep the house. Getting up at the crack of dawn and cleaning is not an easy task. The body needs time to adjust after resting for eight hours of sleep. But do you think he cared, not one bit. Sometimes it would take me the whole day to clean this house. Of course during my task, the television was on, so I could keep up with my daytime talk shows and soap operas.  Taking part in some daytime entertainment kept me distracted from my mundane existence.

Another task that I knew my baby would like is making sure I had a good meal in evening for him to eat. This always impressed because it took the most planning. Nonetheless, he still walked out and left me here alone. Now I am holding on to these sheets in my bed where he left me some time ago. Maybe I should just replace him. I could always find a new baby who will love me and appreciate me for the things I do for him.

I know there’s that one out there that will appreciate that extra mile I am willing to go to satisfy them. Wait a minute, I think I hear something, let me go see what it is I am hearing. Oh my God, it’s coming from outside. Let me see what’s out there. I open the front door, look down and my baby. My baby has returned to me, but not saying a word, just strolls right on in. But you know what, it doesn’t even matter because my babys’ home. Lying comfortably close to his litter box he rest his head.